My dear readers, I have no idea what to do with my life and so I decided to write a few words about it here...hoping that there is anyone who can give me an advice
It looks stupid and childish, but I really don´t know what to do o_o ...I´m not sure if I´m really 25 or just 15 =D because this is a problem which teenagers have, not (almost!) adults like me ......
"To find your passion, think about what you are good at. Then find out which one of those things take the least amount of effort. Make that your career and you will never grow tired, never lose interest and always succeed!"
I keep on thinking about these words.
I feel so lost, I can´t even describe it...I need money, I need job and inside I really wish to do something creative, but I´m sure that´s something that will never happen, that I will end up as a cashier or a shop assistent with no chance of career progress, forced to work with people everyday despite the fact that I hate people and I´m afraid of them. I´m going to be sad, anxious and sick everyday.
But at the same time I´m so tired of my shop (which is a creative work !). I can´t even finish the skirt I´m working on right now. I just can´t do same things over and over and over and over ...but when I make something I enjoy and it seems original to me - it doesn´t sell. Because I´m no fashion designer, I will never be and I don´t even want to.....and this is it - I have no idea what I want to do, or be or achieve <_< When I tell someone about my "I´m so lost" problem, they always asked me this question - "But what is it that you want to do?" or "You have to set your goals first"
...and I have no idea, no goals...last time my dream job was to be an ice-cream seller when I was 5-years-old...since then I don´t know. I don´t want to work with people, I don´t want to help people, I don´t want to sit by a computer in a cubicle all day, I can´t be an artist in any way because I don´t have a school for it and I have absolutely no self-confidence. When I made this job-advice test at the end of primary school, the psychologist told me that selling tickets on airport or a nurse is a perfect job for me............................................................................I´m afraid of airports - I feel panic just when I think about them and sick people makes me sick =D ha ha !
What a perfect test it was, it helped me a lot !
I know that a lot of people have this problem and it´s not only me, but...is there anyone who solved it somehow?
I don´t know where to start...
I don´t know where to start...
Let´s do a little brainstorming - do you have any job ideas for me =D ?
I´m thinking hard, but...........no...there is nothing on my mind >_<
I hope this post doesn´t sound like some kind of self-pitty or I don´t know...you know that I never write about personal things here (only on tumblr =D) but I need some answers or advice not just a shout into the middle of my reblogs ...
...and I really hope that it´s not that stupid, I know there are people who are dealing with worse things, but ...sometimes I´m just clueless
thank you for reading,
here have a cute baby elephant gif =)